Saturday 9 February 2008

Advice

Being able to bounce ideas and run over thoughts and scenarios and generally discuss plans of action and what to do next, is almost a specialist subject of mine that I could use to go on Mastermind with and kick peoples arse on. It works so well in fact that most of the time they fail..... but that only comes down to certain fields, which I have no doubt I'll expand upon, in my drunken state at a later point in time on this blog! I am a theorist, and a realist. I think things through, figure out whats gonna happen through various scenarios and figure out which is the best, and which one will utterly fuck me other, and then see which one will actually have, knowing that the one that'll fuck me over will be the one that plays out. It also means I can be hypocritical (which is me all over) and although I say I'll do this, that and the other, I'll end up doing it in reverse to what I said. For the most part, this plays out fine, and the vast majority of things go the way I expect them to, which is why I don't get surprised too often and can respond in a calm manner and execute what I need to do. But there are times, when this doesn't happen, and failure ensues faster than an STD spread by the best hooker in a red light district.

But when I can't fathom out what to do, and the path I have, becomes blurry and vague, I turn to friends to see what they can offer. At the end of the day, you don't know it all, and nether do they, but each other's shared experiences can be combined to show an avenue that you might not have seen before on your lonesome. Having this opinion, means you can explore someones history, and see what makes them tick. Someones opinion, like mine or yours, is made of of past experiences and things learned and picked up over time, thus meaning you not only learn what they have to offer, but you also learn about them, and the way they pick up nuggets of information. This means that you can turn to them more often cause what they're providing is better quality info than someone else. Its like going from drug dealer to drug dealer. You see which one has the best shit, and keep going back to that dealer, till either they're nicked, or they don't have the supply.

However, having a wide variety of sources means that you can then pick the best path to follow, thus gaining glory and general happiness. But getting peoples advice for a situation, say, like mine: My failure to get a girlfriend, isn't easy. In fact its one of the most plotted minefields I've ever come across! Its insane, some people say its best to be like this, or do that, and others contradict them and say something else, and a 3rd lot, may poopoo them and some something completely from left field!. Its hard, cause, out of all things I do, try, achieve and mainly profiteer from, girls are the one thing I haven't been able to sort out. I've tried being me (a prat, which is what I mainly am), I've tried to be a cheeseball. I refuse to lower myself to become a dickhead, just to pull women, but thats solely on moral grounds and the fact that the advice thats being given, is coming from a retard anyhow. So, being one's self is what I've done. I'm not really hunting, but just keeping an eye out for a possible opening....... it doesn't work!!

Trying to solve this problem, and think my way out of it, is so far proving to be the single most differcult problem I've encountered, and its not getting any easier. In fact, the older I get, the harder it becomes to the point where, by the time I'm 35, I might have been drawn into prescribing into ladies of the night!!! But I plan not to become that desperate!! The solution is there, but maybe in a way way I've not thought about...... or rather not to think about. Following advice from my good friend Kirsty, I should not even think about being single and not think about trying to get into a relationship, not even subconsciously!!! How the fuck do I switch my brain off with that? Its the single, greatest issue I have and I;m not to even have it in the back of my mind. This will be hard, and no matter what I do, it'll play over in my mind....... which is why I'm gonna give it a try! It has to work, cause its not what I do, and its advice coming from a friend who knows me, and knows who I am, not intimately.... unfortunately, but knows what person I am well enough to properly give advice to me and one should always heed her words.

So, starting tomorrow, one will try to erase this drive to not stay single, not keep looking, and it should hopefully work. Theres only one catch: I'm a hypocrite and will most likely poopoo the advice, but not this time!! I need to make this work, and hopefully, I won't be worrying about catching some nasty thing from hookers in Norwich!!!

Have Fun, and always follow good advice, it helps.